Thursday, October 30, 2008

Somehow I forgot a title the first time

gluten = evil

me + gluten = never again

Did you take notes? This was a very important lesson. It will not repeated.

I had gluten today and almost died. It's kind of insane. And by insane, I mean, I want to be unconscious. *dies*

On the brighter side, I bought some books! OH YAY! I love books. And I organized "Cartoon Strips" at work. Totally rocked it. No one told me not to. It was amazing.

Last night was not fun. That's all I have to say.

Saturday, October 25, 2008


That's all.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Life needs direction

My life can sometimes fall into a rut. I will be working consistently, going to school daily, and just living. But. Somehow, it's not right. Why?

I don't really know. I mean, it's not wrong. It's just monotonous? No... Arg. This is frustrating me.

Okay, I think what it is is that my life is going on and I'm working hard, but I don't feel like I'm making progress. So I'm not down in the dumps because I feel productive! Yay productivity! But where is it going? Leading me on to be a teacher? Is that where I'm headed? That's fine. I don't mind being a teacher. But is that it for me? What about my life? What about getting married one day? I don't know what will happen there, and it's a little scary to be out of the know. What about creating art that inspires people to feel one way or another? Will that happen? I aim for it, and shoot for it, and try very hard, but will it happen?

The unknown is annoying because I can't see how close I'm getting to those goals. I can see the other goals in my life and my progress towards them. but I just can't see how near or far I am from those two. The two most important goals for me.

I want to see.

Monday, October 06, 2008

Shiny Toy Guns in Concert

Well, one of my life goals is almost fully realized. If you didn't notice. You know. If you didn't see these pictures and realize what they meant. If you didn't see them. And know. That I was somewhere. Screaming.

I screamed a lot in the car ride home. It was a 2 hour car ride home too. I shrieked a lot too. And sat in utter silence with a huge smile plastered on my face. Nothing could ruin that mood. And still. That mood persists.

I saw him. He was 10 feet away. I could see his facial expressions. See the glitter in his eyes as he scanned the crowd. I could easily imagine he was looking at me sometimes. It was that easy. I was that close. And I could hear his voice. In the same room as me. Singing songs I knew and loved in different ways that I would remember forever. I saw him. I heard him. And then. I met him.

He signed my copy of the CD. In silver. Everyone signed in black. It's like he knew. He must have. I could have died. I actually may have. And I got to see his eyes (which were always so awesome anyway) and they are blue! I thought they were dark! I was shocked. And then enthralled. I was dazzled. And as a result, I acted like a complete fan girl. How embarrassing. >.<

But then later, as I gushed about the CD to Jacqueline, he appeared behind me!! Like a ninja. And I died again. And then I got a picture with him and Jacqueline. A man took it. I suspect he is the STG manager or friend or something. I got to talk to that man afterwards a bit and he was very nice and fun. We agreed that Chad is good people. Really good people. In fact, he should be all people. So I could hang out with him. Which is my life goal. To spend a chunk of time with him. To talk about the music we like, argue about the music we don't like, laugh at dumb stuff, and just hang out. I want to hang out. I want to be around him. And I want to hear him sing without the stupid girl in the crowd next to me who sings along as loud as humanly possible. *hate*

That CD will be one of those things I grab if my house in on fire.

My dearest friend...

Life is full right now. I am always busy, with something on the horizon. I have assignments, work, up and coming events, things to worry about, a cat that I want to kill most of the time, and an iPod to get me through it.

But life is just... full.

I'm preparing an entry about the concert I went to on Wednesday. My favorite band. Shiny Toy Guns. I went. I will write about it.

Up and coming!