Friday, December 26, 2008

Losing it

So, something happened the other day. I was editing videos on iMovie, prepping for some youtube posting and realized I had to scurry off to an event with my friends. So I left my computer in the state of open application and off I went. I returned to find a dark screen and a spinning beach ball. I thought, "oh you are sleeping. Please wake up" and I made to wake it.

It never woke up.

I was, needless to say, distraught. I was panicked, really. So much was on that computer. I brought it to my dad and we spent a day trying to restore it, deciding it wasn't coming back and buying a newer bigger hard drive. Now I have more space than I can ever use.

But for a week+ I had maybe 8 applications. Only 4 of which were of any use. Blah. I had lost all of my music, so I spent a week uploading all my CD's again. Still, it's not the same.

Last night, my Dad uploaded all the last applications I needed. I have all the old ones back now.

I compare this thing to a body.

Imagine going to sleep one night and come morning you find you cannot wake up. Or move. You just lay there. You are aware of things but cannot be involved. So someone comes along and gives you a new brain. When you awake, you can see and walk, but you can't really feel your body and a lot of things aren't as easy to remember. You can remember how to talk on a very basic level, and walk (though unsteadily). It's just hard to be numb. Slowly, you can feel your chest again. Your face too. And you are learning more words. Still, you miss your limbs and how easily they used to move and the cool things you could do and feel.

One day, someone gives you a big meal full of things you can almost remember eating. And afterwards, you stand up and can feel your legs. You wiggle your toes in the carpet and know it. And your arms are fully functional too! And suddenly, all those big words are easy again. Sure, you don't remember a lot of math, or stories you heard. And not every word is back, but you suddenly know that you'll be okay.

Well. I have my body back and I can feel again. So, I'll be okay.

Monday, December 08, 2008

Updating the schedule

Okay, things were rough and didn't go as according to plan. But we'll survive!!!

5 am- Get up
7 am- Work
2:30 pm- Off work
4:30 pm- Class: turn in lesson plans, lantern report, masters art
7 pm- Out of class/Go home
7:45 pm- Get home
8:30 pm- House drawings/stencil work/textures
10 pm- Bed

5 am- Get up
7 am- Go to school
8:30 am- Class
11:30 am- Out of class/Go to Laura's?
2:30 pm- Back to school
3:30 pm- Class
6 pm- Out of class
7 pm- Institute
8:30 pm- Home
9 pm- Home taught
10 pm- Bed

5 am- Get up
7 am- Work
2:30 pm- Off work
3 pm- Home
4 pm- Finish Comp. homework
8:30 pm- Office at Skittles
10 pm- Bed

5 am- Get up
6 am- Go to school
7:15 am- Final
10 am- Turn in comp. stuff
12:15 pm- Haircut
2:30 pm- Home
3 pm- Sleep
4:30 pm- Go to work
5 pm- Work
12:30 am- Off work
1:30 am- Bed

We'll see what happens this time.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Schedules and stuff

So, I have a lot to do and short amount of time to do it. Arg.

8 am- Get up
10 am- Work
7 pm- Off work
7:30 pm- Ward Christmas party
9 pm- Home from WCP??
9:30 pm- Clean my room
11 pm- Bed

8 am- Get up
10 am- Be ready for church
10:30 am- Make sure house is clean/Homework: House drawing!
12:30 pm- Go to church
4:30 pm- Home again
5 pm- Show house sometime to girl
6 pm- Homework: House drawings, shoe, stencil, lesson plans, lantern report, masters art
9 pm- Bed

5 am- Get up
7 am- Go to school
8:30 am- Class: turn in houses and shoe
11:30 am- Out of class/go to Laura's/Brown portfolio
2:30 pm- Back to school
3:30 pm- Class: Turn in stencil work
6 pm- Out of class/Go home
7 pm - Get home
7:30 pm- Homework: lesson plans, lantern report, masters art
10 pm- Bed

5 am- Get up
7 am- Work
2:30 pm- Off work
4:30 pm- Class: turn in lesson plans, lantern report, masters art
7 pm- Out of class/Go home
7:45 pm- Get home
8:30 pm- Homework assigned on Monday
10 pm- Bed

5 am- Get up
7 am- Go to school
8:30 am- Class
11:30 am- Out of class/Go to Laura's
2:30 pm- Back to school
3:30 pm- Class
6 pm- Out of class
7 pm- Institute
9 pm- Home
10 pm- Bed

5 am- Get up
7 am- Work
2:30 pm- Off work
3 pm- Home
4 pm- Finish Comp. homework
8:30 pm- Office at Skittles
10 pm- Bed

5 am- Get up
6 am- Go to school
7:15 am- Final
10 am- Turn in comp. stuff
12:15 pm- Haircut
2:30 pm- Home
3 pm- Sleep
4:30 pm- Go to work
5 pm- Work
12:30 am- Off work
1:30 am- Bed

We'll see what happens...

Thursday, November 27, 2008

I beg for days to know

Yes. It is late. But I needed to fix my budget spreadsheet before I forgot. And I did. It is now awesome.

I am feeling in a relatively good mood. Being productive has that affect on me. Also, I got two Christmas presents done today. :D

Thanksgiving is tomorrow (today!) and I approach it with mixed feelings. Being allergic to gluten leaves a lot to be desired when eating. I can spend a fortune on gluten-free, almost normal tasting foods, but it costs (ha ha, sob) a fortune. I am not made of fortunes.

So this gluten free thanksgiving is the first of forever many. My family, though, has been entirely lovely and accommodating. My parents have invested in gluten free stuffing, pie, and something else I cannot recall. Lucky me, potatoes and jello and turkey do not have gluten in them or even in their foody minds. How truly awesome.

My sister, who is supremely cool, has taken to going gluten free too. We both have killer stomach problems and she is trying all kinds of things to see what helps. She was (perhaps still is?) going dairy free. She cut out high acidic foods. And now, no gluten.

Lack of gluten is rough. But I am determined to live, not survive--live, and to eat yumminess.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Oh noes!!!

I went to go to bed and discovered my clothes had congregated on it, sipped the thread kool-aide, and now I have a massive number of clothing corpses to dispose of. And it is very late. I am tempted to merely sleep beneath them.

Rar rar rar.

More time for me to exist, please.

For serious.

And missionaries are dangerous dodgeball players. When they put on the tag, they become terminators. Unbelievable strength in those boys. I wanted to catch a ball and it jammed my wrist. My good one. The one I have to use to do art with. *panic* I NEED that hand!!!!!!!!! I can't use it!!!!!! *über panic*

*runs away screaming*

Friday, November 07, 2008

My sister

My sister is insanely brilliant. She thinks through things before coming to conclusions. She works hard and dedicates herself to goals. She speaks eloquently and respectfully, and explains her views clearly. She is beautiful and strong and I admire her so much. :)

Here's an example of why:

Awesome smartitude

Check her out. She's an awesome sandwich.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

What makes it Shiny...

Why I love my new CD the point of appropriate distraction.

Amazing lyrics combined with intense melodies.

It feels like you're letting go.
I beg for days to know
Why you're letting go.
Bring on the poison
Thoughts in your throat!
I beg for days to know
Why you're letting go.

Maybe it's all around to see
If we try.
And Maybe it's been inside of me
All this time.
Love love love...
Where did it come from and where
Does it go?
If it were right in front of me
Would I know?
Love love love...

A child in sound,
Fades away
For silence has spoken...
Painfully, I prepare a release
And poison takes me away.
From this world you left below,
I'm going to meet you,
I've come to take you home.

Call my name!
Answer me, where I stand.
Now the clouds are twisting higher,
Planting arrows away,
Loose in the darkness of the streets
Are my electricity.
This will go no further,
I swear, it dies today.
Your nights will stay forever
If you dare once more touch me.

These broken days won't last forever
You know I'll put us back together.
We climb! We crawl!
Tear down the wall
That we've torn down before!
It's not too late, this song will say
What I never say.

I mean, the lyrics are great and you don't even know how the music goes! Sad to be without it, I think.


Enter the Season of Poison with me.

I have been waiting for so long. I have it now. It is mine forever. Perhaps you have seen me quoting the lyrics.

"Painfully, I prepare a release..."

"She ricochets, yeah you don't notice..."

The list can go further. I could sing most of them by heart now.

Have a look. Live life more fully because of it. Shiny Toy Guns - Season of Poison (Bonus Track Version)

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Somehow I forgot a title the first time

gluten = evil

me + gluten = never again

Did you take notes? This was a very important lesson. It will not repeated.

I had gluten today and almost died. It's kind of insane. And by insane, I mean, I want to be unconscious. *dies*

On the brighter side, I bought some books! OH YAY! I love books. And I organized "Cartoon Strips" at work. Totally rocked it. No one told me not to. It was amazing.

Last night was not fun. That's all I have to say.

Saturday, October 25, 2008


That's all.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Life needs direction

My life can sometimes fall into a rut. I will be working consistently, going to school daily, and just living. But. Somehow, it's not right. Why?

I don't really know. I mean, it's not wrong. It's just monotonous? No... Arg. This is frustrating me.

Okay, I think what it is is that my life is going on and I'm working hard, but I don't feel like I'm making progress. So I'm not down in the dumps because I feel productive! Yay productivity! But where is it going? Leading me on to be a teacher? Is that where I'm headed? That's fine. I don't mind being a teacher. But is that it for me? What about my life? What about getting married one day? I don't know what will happen there, and it's a little scary to be out of the know. What about creating art that inspires people to feel one way or another? Will that happen? I aim for it, and shoot for it, and try very hard, but will it happen?

The unknown is annoying because I can't see how close I'm getting to those goals. I can see the other goals in my life and my progress towards them. but I just can't see how near or far I am from those two. The two most important goals for me.

I want to see.

Monday, October 06, 2008

Shiny Toy Guns in Concert

Well, one of my life goals is almost fully realized. If you didn't notice. You know. If you didn't see these pictures and realize what they meant. If you didn't see them. And know. That I was somewhere. Screaming.

I screamed a lot in the car ride home. It was a 2 hour car ride home too. I shrieked a lot too. And sat in utter silence with a huge smile plastered on my face. Nothing could ruin that mood. And still. That mood persists.

I saw him. He was 10 feet away. I could see his facial expressions. See the glitter in his eyes as he scanned the crowd. I could easily imagine he was looking at me sometimes. It was that easy. I was that close. And I could hear his voice. In the same room as me. Singing songs I knew and loved in different ways that I would remember forever. I saw him. I heard him. And then. I met him.

He signed my copy of the CD. In silver. Everyone signed in black. It's like he knew. He must have. I could have died. I actually may have. And I got to see his eyes (which were always so awesome anyway) and they are blue! I thought they were dark! I was shocked. And then enthralled. I was dazzled. And as a result, I acted like a complete fan girl. How embarrassing. >.<

But then later, as I gushed about the CD to Jacqueline, he appeared behind me!! Like a ninja. And I died again. And then I got a picture with him and Jacqueline. A man took it. I suspect he is the STG manager or friend or something. I got to talk to that man afterwards a bit and he was very nice and fun. We agreed that Chad is good people. Really good people. In fact, he should be all people. So I could hang out with him. Which is my life goal. To spend a chunk of time with him. To talk about the music we like, argue about the music we don't like, laugh at dumb stuff, and just hang out. I want to hang out. I want to be around him. And I want to hear him sing without the stupid girl in the crowd next to me who sings along as loud as humanly possible. *hate*

That CD will be one of those things I grab if my house in on fire.

My dearest friend...

Life is full right now. I am always busy, with something on the horizon. I have assignments, work, up and coming events, things to worry about, a cat that I want to kill most of the time, and an iPod to get me through it.

But life is just... full.

I'm preparing an entry about the concert I went to on Wednesday. My favorite band. Shiny Toy Guns. I went. I will write about it.

Up and coming!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

A few free moments

I go to work in 8 minutes. Wee.

I got 5 hours of sleep last night. Awesome. It felt good. :)

...uh. I do art all the time? School being all art classes. My cat is a crazy whiner. He sits around our doors and cries for hours on end for NO REASON. He has all the food he wants, we're always playing with him, and what else is there to cry for? It drives us crazy. And then he flies around the house and runs into things and knocks things over. He jumps on stuff and attacks our feet (without his claws, though, thank goodness). But he is NUTS.

Currently, cat is walking around the house crying. What a dumb cat.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Frozen Oceans

Today has been awesome. I mean it. Awesome. Stunning. A sky of spectacular colors and music. Good day. GOOD day.

Got a lot of sleep last night. Work was pretty good and productive. I got a Jamba Juice for lunch. I bought a new CD--awesome soundtrack to "Fast and Furious: Tokyo Drift."

And the highlight.

Shiny Toy Guns released a new song for us. I almost cried, it was so good. I can't stop listening to it. *shiver* I wish it had more Chad, but it's still awesome. If he was hitting some those notes though... I would probably have cried.

I need to soak in this song more. It inspired me for a piece.

Frozen Oceans by ~abthomas on deviantART

Monday, September 15, 2008

Awesome in a bottle

I feel pretty spectacular!

I had an AWESOME 21st birthday party on Saturday and some of my favorite people were there!!!! My amazing sister planned and put together the whole thing, because that's how she rolls. My parents came and everyone loved them, and my other sister brought herself and my nephew and everyone LOVED Brady's trick with the iPhone (he can turn it on and unlock it--he figured it out!!).

I bought two movies and borrowed a dozen movies I've been meaning to see! I should invite someone over to watch them with me. Sometime. *ponder* How delightful!

I'm very tired. I've been doing my homework, but still am not done. I am going to sleep in efforts to get some sleep. =_=

I may ask for the saturday after next off to sleep in and chill. Do homework, read, go for a motorcycle ride. Whatever. *peace*

Friday, September 12, 2008


Always tired. Too tired. =_=

We got a cat. He is small and orange and playful and loving. He is very cute and soft and crazy. He flies around the house and falls all over the place. I love it. He sleeps in not-my-room.

Not enough time in the day. *sigh*

Friday, September 05, 2008

Clothes and things I love

Doing laundry, Is the only free time I have. Clothes do not last forever. Also, had a long nap today.


Things I am looking forward to:

-Shiny Toy Guns in concert. October 1st. All other things are moot. STG is love. Chad Petree is love. This concert will fulfill a life goal of mine. Partially. The other part of that goal is, I shall admit, very unlikely *sob*.

-Weezer in concert. October 13th. With my Karren. My favorite concert/movie/musical/shopping/fun-thing-to-do buddy. Weezer should be pounds of fun. Pounds. Not ounces. Not quartz. Pounds. Both in weight and monetary worth. Fun band plus fun sister equals awesome memory for life.

-Alkaline trio/Thrice/Rise Against in concert. November 7th. This will be different than other concerts I have attended. The music being different than my usual style. Different crowd. Louder. Rougher. Funner. I shall, without a doubt, get bruised. How marvelous.

-Ludo in concert. November 12th. My most recent adoration. Very awesome. I hope they are good in concert. Must confess, sheer excitement of seeing the Moogle (What I call people who play "Moogs") because he is delightful.

Oh yes. In a two month period, I shall attend 4 concerts. Hence, I am trying to NOT spend money. Too bad money likes to be spent. It's goal in life is to be spent. Get around. Not stay locally. I try to convince--positively coerce--it into committing, but it is so rebellious. And I just can't stop it. I contemplate stashing the card and seeing how happy money is after that. I am sure it won't be so easy for it to get out to spend time with unsavory individuals. Climbing into registers. Cafés. Even other people's wallets. I don't know where I went wrong--money has just gotten so out of control. What can I do other than take away the plastic? Will I allow money to go towards food? Food is the only friend I like money to associate with. I don't really like gas, but I know gas means well, so I accept it. But other friends are not allowed, but seem to come over anyway. Candy is fat and sticky and leaves messes all over my things. Books take up space and occupy my time. Music is loud and distracting. The problem is that I miss these unacceptable friends when they are not over--and encourage money to associate with them again. I am the enabler. What sucker I have proven to be.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Yes, it is late--I am aware

It happens on occasion (less frequently than it used to be) that I stay up late. For the past couple weeks, I have been very steady in my going-to-bed-at-a-reasonable-time routine. Tonight, I stayed up late. I decided I needed to finish something I had yet to have finished.

Avatar: The Last Airbender.

I finally watched it all. I am extremely satisfied. It served as a good distraction as well, from some particularly severe abdominal pain. *shrug*

Anyway. Tomorrow I have my computer art class. Yay!? I have not been to it yet--first day. And then I have work. And then I have work again Saturday morning. And on Saturday evening I have a jewelry party. And then Sunday is Sunday. And--and--and! I am tired already.


Tuesday, August 19, 2008

News news, what's the news?

I hasn't got news. I lied. Full of lies. The everything is a lie.

The other day I went to Cheesecake Factory with Dan to celebrate hanging out and our birthdays. he paid, as my present, and then I bought him a movie at Borders. Good times.

I sunburns are going away. They still itch like crazy, but not as painful anymore. :3 And peeling less!! They had majorly bad peeling. Majorly... -_-;

Mmm... Been painting! And sketching. I wrote up a script for the first chapter of a graphic novel I've been carefully crafting for the past 4 years. And today I finally did, basically, story boarding. That's what I call it. I actually just looked at my scripting and planned out each page. I ended up adding more pages than the script entailed. Brilliant. 10 more pages than planned. I just kept trying to cram so much onto a page. Maybe tomorrow I will draw a page! Oh. I think I will pencil all the pages of chapter 1 before I ink them. Yeah. You know. Yeah!

I should clean off my drafting table. It's a little cluttered.

Friday, August 15, 2008

A few things

There are a few things that kind of engulf my soul. But we are not here to talk about all of them. We are here to talk about Shiny Toy Guns--my favorite band. The band I relish over, die over, and live for. Chad Petree, my celebrity crush, and he stupendous voice. Yes. They are my life and love when it comes to music.

And they are releasing a new album. In October. I can hardly wait!!

And they released a new single today!! TODAY!!! They got a new singer, Sisley Treasure. I wasn't sure how I felt about her voice, being it's a lot lower than Cara's was... But I like it now. A lot. It works nicely with Chad's. And Chad's is lovely, of course. And usual. He always hits those notes right.

Ricochet. Awesome.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Life on the river

I went river rafting! And by rafting, I mean, floating down the calmest river ever and attacking other boats full of your friends. With water guns! :D

As a result of this event, though, I came away with a lot of bruises and very bad sunburns. T__T The sunburns are was make me sad. Today, at work, any time anything touched a sunburned portion of flesh (clothed or not) it stung with a thousand needles of PAIN. And I checked later and found that my sunburned legs have begun to bleed a little. Ehh.. Whatever.

I am in a very good mood though. I just am.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Being migrained

In efforts to distract my migraine, I have been enjoying lolcats.

I took excedrine, now I lay down. It's starting it's magical powers... -v-

I'm like--I'm like--WHOA!

I'm completely euphoric. Truly.

BREAKING DAWN WAS THE BEST EVER! Better than Harry Potter! Than anything! So much awesomeness! Can't handle it! *amazing*

And now I own the whole series. Kind of a splurge for me. But, I figured I deserved it, since I am amazingly persuasive even unto my own mind. Like Jasper... Ish. If I were a Vampire, I wonder if I would have some outstanding gift? *wonder*

But, let's deviate from Twlightery. Just for a moment.

I had set this goal, see, that if I didn't get an iTouch for my birthday, I would buy one. I had all these reasons for why I would too. One, I'm not home much anymore and I have begun to miss important emails and such. Two, my internet is the pits and I don't get to use it much. Three, my iPod is getting very weak in battery life. Those were very valid reasons and I was convinced. And then, I was balancing my checkbook, and thinking about how I would begin school soon and work less and have much less of an income. And suddenly, it was far less important to have an iTouch and far more important to have money saved up. After all, I would spend all my time on the internet no matter where I was and I couldn't afford to slap down 300+ dollars for an iTouch because I was getting out of touch (yeah, cool play on words, yeah? Thought of that on the spot. I'm cool like that). I also decided I could live without a new digital camera because mine DOES work, even if it is not superbly... I can live without a 10 mega pixel skinny camera. I don't take a ton of pictures anyway except of my artwork and people and stuff.

Basically, I want both things a lot, but not enough to spend a couple hundred dollars on them. I would rather be eating come December.

Hence I bought myself some Twilight books. The newest book only cost me 15 dollars with my rewards discount--that's nothing. And then I won 25 borders bucks from work, which pays for 1 and a half books--maybe 2. So, I had no trouble negotiating my way into a new set of lovelies.

Ze end!

Friday, August 01, 2008

To do

I have an open day until work this evening, so I have things to do! ^_^

[ ] Laundry
[ ] Clean room
[ ] Store
[ ] Art
[ ] Work outfit
[ ] Knit
[x] Some Blog Transfer

Monday, July 21, 2008

Something more than you

I feel awesome self-confident. Almost half of the day has been spent in perfect confidence. Amazing. ^_^

Just amazing.

Monday, July 14, 2008

A bit

I would bend time and space to give you wings.
Then you could fly, like in your dreams.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Catching the reins

My life has been out of control, but in a most ninja like way.

I realized today I have not been a very good friend to my friends. I have not made efforts to hang out with any of them, or even called them. I have always been a little shy about people who are not my BFF's, but I must change that.

Also, I have been not as vigilant in my calling as I should be--this is changing. Emails galore to help everyone, as well as me.

And, attacking school with all my guns ablaze. I make phone calls in the morning.

I balanced my checkbook, on a notecard since my book is full. I must order a new one.

I am going to the bank tomorrow--or rather, today. Heh? I have been NOT spending money and been extra frugal with it and it's paying off. Literally. :) Continue saving, please.

Yes. I feel better already. Got the ball rolling on life, and it feels good.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Right here, right now


I been working a lot. Obviously. Social life? None. T__T

Been getting up early early to water Tim's yard. It's a weird feeling to wander in their backyard and turn on the hose and water the grass when his roommates are all inside doing whatever they do in the morning. *shrug*

Not much else going on. Yeah.. Not much at all.

Thursday, June 26, 2008


I got to sleep in today. :3 I slept in really late. It was lovely. But, also a mistake, because I should have gone to the store. Alas...

My room mates and I are throwing a house warming party this weekend. It'll be very chill and laid back, but we need food. I am not excited to buy that food--it will be a lot of food. T_T

But I went to my neighbors house this evening for Jaren's surprise party! I went early to help Tim set up, and no one else showed up to help. I was shocked. So we made cake, and cleaned the house, and put food out. He watered some trees outside while I watered the plants inside. I later decorated the cakes as people came. The party was fun and there was dancing by the end of it, lots of fun music. I got to see Hannah and had SO much fun chattering with her about whatever and ever. Secret stuff. Y'know. Like. Whatever.

Afterwards, I helped clean up. I washed the dishes while Tim put food away and such. He got some of the chocolate cake on his shirt and was silly and refused to go change out of it into something else, so I had to clean it on him.

Anyway. I baby sit the bebe tomorrow, as usual. I am determined to get there on time. Goodness.

Did laundry today too.

To do:
Study for history final
Clean my room
Clean the house
Buy food, and party food
Weed the backyard
Buy a tree (?)

Monday, June 23, 2008

Sunday, June 22, 2008


Why am I laughing like a crazy head? I will tell you later. Seriously, I will.

I made some Mushroom Leek soup this evening, and it turned out well. A teensy bit thin, but no one need know but the people in the family who know better. And the taste is still right and good, so the ward will be happy at the Linger Longer. Happiness prevails.

I wrote a song on Garage Band the other day, and I'm highly pleased because I can't read music to save my life. But I can hear the note that I need and the program has a nifty little sound to note thing. Kind of thing. Like... I put a note on the scale and it sounds it so I can adjust until it's right, and then I put another one beside it. And adjust the length of each note. :3 I am very happy.

Mmm... Mmmm! I took a final today! My first final! My arts of asia class. I studied like a madwoman for it and I think I did really well!!! I felt so confident in my answers. ^_^ YEE!! And the teacher took me aside and said I was looking at a B average, which is WAY more than I thought I had. So, whoa and yay! I'm so pleased. SO pleased.

And I've been feeling so inspired to write and things are coming nicely out.

All in all, good mood all around.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Mah Ha!

I feel like I should write something here.

O hai?

I've been very busy with work and school. Trying to get sleep in wherever possible, too. Yesterday I was really sick though, and called work to see how heavy it was and told them I was willing to come in. But they said it was fine, I should rest. I was grateful, but now it's Friday, almost friday noon, and the pain remains. This all sucks something fierce.

Anyway, I have to go buy food today. Also, deposit money. And clean my room. All before 2. Then Jacqueline comes over for some creativity time, and then I go to Gwen's for dinner. :3

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Moving, settling, and relaxing

Today was complicated. Very complicated. I'm extremely tired.

First off, I got 1 hour of sleep last night. My mind was racing, for some bizarre reason. *shrug* Then I got up at 7am to get ready for school. I did my homework, turned it in, and then went back home.

I then proceeded to get some rest.

Then I packed my remaining things--things I use regularly. Ooh. That was tiring. Then it was off to the shorebreeze to fetch my moving buddies. It took over an hour to round them all up. But we needed every one of them: James, Meredith, and Jaren. My brother-in-law came a short while later and he helped us.

We moved everything into a U-Haul van and drove it to my house. Then we emptied it all into the garage. Most people left, so I trickled some of the stuff out. But I left around 6:15 to go to a talent/variety show to see all my friends perform. It was awesome.

Then James and I drove back to my parents to get the desk we forgot and some more food and bedding. Then back to my house, where James put my desk in my room, and then constructed my drafting table and my bed. Then we went to his apartment and watched Moulin Rouge because I hadn't seen it. I liked it. It made me cry.

After that, I was a zombie walking, but by the time I got home I was more awake, so I unpacked some more. Mostly, the things I needed. Computer stuff, my bedding, clothes, pajamas, scriptures. But I haven't found all my shoes, so I'll have to dig those up before church or else go in converses. Hrm.

Friday, May 23, 2008

A thousand ways

I worked. All. Day. Oh. Man. I'm so tired. Dead.

I got there an hour early due to miscalculations on my part of travel time. Ah well. And then I read the handbook for an hour, signed stuff for a half hour, and then tore the covers of magazines for an hour. I shelved books the rest of the day (5 hours of shelving). I got a ticket for parking in one place too long, but it was implied they would cover it because someone told me I could park there. I hope it is. I kind of need all the money I can get. Shelving... shelving. SHELVING. *twitch* I didn't finish shelving the fiction cart I loaded out.

I move in a week. Woo!

Feeling a little overwhelmed right now, though. Yeah... It's staggering me. I need to take tomorrow after school off. I work on Monday, so Saturday is my day. Yo.

Sometimes, music makes my heart hurt.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

On the progress of Al kind

Al being me. Allison. Alli. Al. Grasp it?

I signed my lease. I move on the last weekend of May! Eek! X) I'm so excited!!! ^_^ A house and a room and roommates again! YAY!

Also. I got my job. Officially, I start tomorrow morning. Man! I'm excited. :3 That mans money. I have be extra thrifty and frugal. I will manage. I can't afford to spend money willy nilly because I will have barely enough to eat and buy gas with. And pay my rent.

I also have to make sure I finish getting into SJSU. So much to do... still. >_< Gwar!

I want to attend a comic/cartoon costume party in June, and I need to prepare my costume. Rogue. I shall be her. I'll be awesome!! :D

I have to write a paper due Saturday. I'll work on it a lot tonight, and finish tomorrow night. Yes.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Life unfolds

My life is on the verge of drastic, permanent change. In so many ways. It's a bit intimidating.

Moving out again, hopefully in a more permanent manner, within the next month.

Going to a university in the Fall.

Getting a job.

Getting a car.

I mean, wow. So much change. And I keep changing internally as well. Making decisions and coming to conclusions. Some of them are very hard for me to make, and I will try to fight myself on them someday, if not immediately. But I'll rely on others to help me when I need it. And I do need it.

I hope I can see clearly and not be blinded by silly oddities.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008


I have a Twitter. Who knew? Not me. Didn't think I'd ever go there. I have. I'm there. I might possibly be the Mayor of Twitterville.

Ha ha, Twitter.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Have I no evil?

I am feeling energetic and productive!

I ran outside for about 30 minutes and took pictures of our pretty garden. I can see it outside my window everyday and today I noticed the rose bush was pretty in the sunlight, so off I went. And there I saw all these other flowers I had never seen through my window. Photos were taken. Love was shared. Tears were shed.

Anyway. I'm completely ready to be productive and happy. So I'm going to do my homework and maybe even do all the homework for the rest of the quarter (as far as I can do them, as some may involve a movie or discussion) for my History class. I will then, perhaps between some homework, go finish my bathroom and bedroom cleaning process.

Woo! I feel really upbeat!

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Future Foe Scenarios

I love this song so very much, I just have to put the lyrics here. Now. And insist you find it and listen.

"The things we laid do not amount to much
Made of abandoned wood, loose stones and such.
This revolution, baby,
Proves who you work for lately

Release the castaways who run amok
From self appointed winds which blow and such.
When present tense get strangled in the mire
Made of our cozy decomposing wires.

Who do you work baby?
Does it work for you lately?

But when the night is over and the walls start burning,
When fire starts to matter and the clock's still churning.
Clichés and other chatter keep our minds from learning
Our minds keep learning
It's alright
It's alright.

The things we laid do not amount to much
Made up of thought balloons and cotton swabs
When present tense get strangled in the woes
Made up our future foe scenarios

This revolution, baby,
Proves who you work for lately.
Who do you work for, baby,
Does it work for you lately?

But when the night is over and the walls start linking
When fire starts to matter and the clock's still sinking
Clichés and all the chatter keep our minds from thinking
I must keep thinking
It's alright!
It's alright.
It's alright...

It's alright.
That's when it turned on me
A motorcade of 'meant to be's
Parade of beauty queens
Where soft entwines make kindling.
These many detailed things
Like broken nails and plastic rings
Will win by keeping me
From speaking to my new darling!
And there's no way to know
Our future foe scenarios
That's when it turned on me
Where bobby pins held angel wings."

Sunday, April 13, 2008

A motorcade of meant-to-be's

When I was following the path along Geology, I knew certain things would not happen and certain things would happen later. I didn't know specifics, but a lot of things were going to happen later in my life.

When I changed to become an art teacher, it dawned on me (only days ago) that things were different this way. Things that weren't possible before, are very possible now. And things that were for later, can now be sooner. It's daunting, but not really... I'm just getting ready.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Like towers

My first week of the new quarter is almost over. One more class tomorrow morning. I know. Saturday class. Lame, yeah? But it could be worse. X)

I'm trying to take the initiative in my life. Things I've been wanting to do, I just have to do. I can't argue that I want it if I won't work for it. I have to keep trying. It's rough. -_-

Need to find an apartment. And get a job of some kind. I'm tired of no job. I want to learn a language I actually like (spanish=no likey) and keep up my schoolwork.

Like retake that math class this summer. I am. Or will. Yes.

Which reminds me. One of my classes was canceled for the whole quarter, so I had to find a new class to take. I wanted one that transfers to SJSU in my major but everything was full. I finally found the advanced ceramics class had some open spots and emailed the teacher and got in. I took the intro class a few quarters ago, so if I take this, it'll fulfill the requirement for taking a ceramics course at SJSU. Did that make sense? Somehow I think it didn't.

Friday, April 04, 2008

Patchwork farms

I feel brand new. Or rather, back to normal. Like I once did but haven't felt in a long while. It's extremely comforting and pleasant.

I even have a cold, and don't care. *snuggle*

I have decided to switch my major back to art. I realized, after much deliberation, I was unhappy. And I tried a lot of things to get back to my happy place, but to no avail. And when someone mentioned to me, I might be happy doing art again. I felt they were right, but still fought it. But then it occurred to me... I would actually enjoy being an art teacher. For high schoolers, yeah? I loved my high school art classes. They were like a second home. Wonderful.

So, here I am, altering my schedule for next quarter so I'm taking two art classes instead of two science classes. And I feel really good about it! :D YAY!

Monday, March 31, 2008

My spoon is too big

So, the past week, I have been on lent. Or rather, something that is very like, but not the exact same as lent. Basically, lent with a different name.

What have I lented? (new word, use it) Internet. Most internet. Specifically!

Instant Messaging (except in emergencies)
And I have tried to keep from blogging.

I have created a rewards system for myself. Every week I go without, I get to buy myself a book. :3 Yee!

I suspect I must add YouTube to that list because it is VERY distracting. Goodness.

Anyway. Why I have lented these things away!

I spend far too much time on the computer being lazy youtubing, facebooking, myspacing, and whatever else. And I need to spend more time being real and doing real things. Like spending time with the family. Reading books. Drawing. Walking. Singing. Writing.

I've been writing! I wrote a short story, six pages long, that no one will ever read. Ever. I'm shy. But I enjoyed it.

Right. Well. Yes.

Don't Expect much from me on this front. Or any other front. I'm off being whatever I want to be.

Monday, March 24, 2008

In the wars

Sometimes I wonder if the pains will just taper off, yeah? Maybe after a few more months, they'll be gone. I mean, sometimes I don't feel them! That's a good sign. But then again, sometimes I do feel them. Quite sharply. And though the magnitude of whatever it is has decreased over the weeks, the fact remains: I'm still in pain. After a month. That is a bad bad thing.

So let's get an ultrasound!

Oh! So... 32 ounces of water sounds like a lot. But it's actually only 4 cups of water. Yeah. That's it. Right? Well... 4 cups of water? IS A LOT!

Water is NOT a tasty tasty treat...

Sunday, March 23, 2008


I finally get some ultrasounds tomorrow for my stomach pains. After over a month. How annoying.

As a result of the coming photos, I can't be eating or drinking after midnight. BUT tomorrow at 9 am, I have to start chugging 32 ounces of water. Ugh. And I have to drink it all by 9:30. I'm going to die.

Reading is lovely. I decided to read Emma first and Jane Eyer after that.

All bones, no lies

Song of choice: "Skinny Boy" by Amy Millan

Le sigh.

I have a lot to think about. It's hard being a girl sometimes, because my mind explores every option that could ever be available to me. And it taints a great many opportunities. Or imagines opportunities up where only walls will stand.

Happy Easter.

Finished Enchantment. I love that book. Jane Eyer is next, I believe. That excites me. :) I hope I can walk tomorrow. I miss the walking. I didn't walk today. It didn't occur to me. I walk on odd days.

Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays have always felt like "even days" while Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays feel like "odd days" and Sunday is the equals sign. Huh.. My life is a math equation. But either way, Sunday remains neither odd nor even, so I may choose to walk it. I should walk Saturdays, though. Definitely.

I catch myself staring off into space. Thinking of nothingness. What distracts me so.. I wish I could express it without confusing myself.

Writing has helped me keep my mind clear. As has reading. I have been finding marvelous ways to distract myself, no?

Song of choice: "Come Clean" by Eisley
(Can't wait to see them in May!!)

Friday, March 21, 2008

Huh... that's different

My stomach is flip-flopping. I don't know what to make of that. I feel like maybe I should eat something. No, wait, that makes it flip more (or rather, the idea does). I'm not sure what's the cause is.

Meanwhile, I feel for assured in some once conceived notions of mine. Yeah.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Brings us back to the impossible truth

This kind of thing, should not BE normal. That's all I have to say on that.

I have rediscovered my love of a certain band. Golden Age, I believe it's called. And learned. It is gone. Forever. The band is just gone. Which makes me sad because I like their music. I only have four songs, which may be all they ever made. But I love them.

Want school to be done. Tired of it. Want to go to the beach.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Are those sticks for leaning on, or scoring with?

I went to the Sharks game tonight vs. Minnesota. It was awesome! I love going to sports games. I love getting caught up in the energy and cheering and booing and clapping my hands numb. It's marvelous. :3

I finished "Children of the Mind" and so I have moved on to another series by another author.

Also, school tomorrow. Last real day of classes. How scary. Yeek.

Humorous Pictures
see more crazy cat pics

Monday, March 17, 2008

As of today

I have decided to go walk down to the park everyday. We have a park down the street from us, it's a 10 or 15 minute walk. Really nice, too. Even sidewalk, some nice inclines too. I walked it today, sat on a bench for a while, and walked back. And read a book the entire time. It was lovely. So yeah, that's going to be my new thing to do. It's nice. Especially with all the books I've been meaning to read.

Also, I need to drink more water. Lots of water. I will try to drink a whole heck of a lot. Can you OD on water? Just curious... You know. In case I do.

But for the walk I made a playlist for my iPod called "pleasant day" and I filled it with charming music.
"Skyscraper" - The arrogants
"The Incurables" - The arrogants
"Pounding" - Doves
"1 2 3 4" - Feist
"Mushaboom" - Feist
"Just Like Heaven" - Katie Melua
"Listen to my bubble go pop!" - Kindercore
"War on Sound" - Moonbabies
"The Bones of an Idol" - NP
"These are the Fables" - NP
"Wraith pinned to the Mist" - Of Montreal
"Such Great Heights" - The Postal Service
"Brand New Colony" - The Postal Service
"Hallelujah" - Rufus Wainwright
"Antarctica Stars" - Sonicflyer
"The Book I Write" - Spoon
"Elevator Love Letter" - Stars
"World Spins Madly On" - The Weepies

It's a nice mix and I add to it and remove from it, as I see fit.

I currently see fit to shower.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

What a day

Ehhhh, not much to report. Not much at all.

I thought I had something figured out concerning my chest pains, but it seems I was mistaken. Oh well. One more week until the ultrasounds. *waits*

And not having my math class to worry about has taken the load off my life because the other two classes required next to no work. Which is awesome. Just have to work on my speech classes group work. Research wind energy and draw an energy savvy house. Sweetness.

To be done:
[x] Finish "Xenocide"
[ ] Draw Laura's characters
[ ] Finish my sixteen drawings
[x] Start "Children of the Mind"
[ ] Laura's painting
[ ] Write
[ ] Start project

Saturday, March 15, 2008

On nature and trees

Remember when I talked about the tree outside my window? Well that same tree is now so thick with leaves, I can't even see that little birds nest. I win.

Gordon is in town for a few days, sleeping on the couch. I'm glad to have my brother home, even for a short while.

Also, music. I bought some off iTunes yesterday. Yay music! Silversun Pickups, The Kills, and I looked for some Sonicflyer, but they only have it in the UK and not even my favorite song. I'm at a loss...

I also suspect I like videos too much.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Awesome Music Videos

I love scouring youtube for good music videos. These are the ones in my favorites.


That's the way it should be

Basically, if I could be as adorable as that, I'd win everything.

I'm not a quitter

Just because I decided I will not be attending math anymore this quarter, does not make me a quitter. Things just aren't going to get better--I cannot salvage this class and the stress is killing me. So, I'm going to try to keep my stress down, focus on my other classes, and retake this class later. I was going to next quarter, but the teachers are so bad... so horrendously bad, I cannot bring myself to do it. I'll wait until summer, yeah?


But now I need a new class for next quarter. Biology? Wouldn't that be awesome. Physics and Chemistry and Biology. Woo.. T_T I'd die. So, maybe not biology. I'm at a loss..

I'm taking another history class.

Day lights saving time

I don't think it saves much time. I don't think day lights should go around trying to save time at all. They're not very good. ;)

It's 1 am and I don't feel tired. Well, I do, but that's because I stayed up too late last night. But I had a 4 hour nap between classes today, which was lovely. <3

Did I mention I've been drawing? I think I have. To lazy to go read some previous posts. Far too lazy. But, yes, I have been drawing.

Also, I have the hiccups. I don't get those often. Hm. I don't like them.

Eat something and go to bed. And get rid of these hiccups. I shall WILL them away.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Yo ho, blow the girl down

Yes, it is rather late. I am vastly and painfully aware of that fact. I am trying to type softly because my Mom is asleep in the family room (which is the only place she can sleep with her shoulder hurting). I think she can hear me anyway.

I'm taking a break from my speech. I got home from FHE and wasn't feeling hot, so I lay down. And woke up at 1:30 am. Curses. So I had to get working on the speech. I finished my outline just now, and will proceed to the check out counter to ... wait. Scratch that part. I will proceed to write the actual speech.

California Health Insurance.

Wee! :D I'm quite sleepy!

Monday, March 10, 2008

Doesn't like country music

Not a bit. Mostly. Very few songs I like. Like... five. Or six.

Been drawing a lot, which lovely. I've been needing to make progress.

Also, playing Sims. All kinds of Sims. Sims for my DS and for my mac. I love Sims. It makes me smile. And while away my time.

It's late. Not sure why I'm up.

I register for classes at 5 am. Not ready... grump.

Friday, March 07, 2008

Awesome Actions All Around

I could go on with the A thing. Totally.

This morning (or was it last night?) I decided to upload all my writings into google docs so if my computer should die, my stuff will not. And the only my docs will die is if the internet dies. And the only way the internet would die would be if the world blew up (let me believe this) and then it wouldn't matter anyway.

Also. Why must a person be so difficult when all I want to the institute directors number? What a bothersome sort of person he is. Not the director. The one with his number.

My mom is in surgery. I'm kind of paranoid. I want her to be better now and home and not at the hospital. I want to be pampering her now.

And, I had another rad dream. This one was about the future and bombs blowing up a huge oil thing and everything goes weird and Japan disappeared. Go figure. I shall write it down.

Must go to SJSU and be ranting and raving at counselors for confusing me. Collaboration with De Anza counselors, I swear. Determined to keep me at De Anza forever. And by forever I mean my children will be going there.


I think it's clear

humorous pictures

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Things I wanted

There are things I always wanted to do that I lost sight of. And now... I want them. And I will work towards them.

Go to Wales for a long term visit.
Draw the comic I've been writing.

There are more and I've been rediscovering them recently. So... good luck to me. :3

Other various things



< D


Yes. Happy. Why? No idea. Truly!

I removed a major point of stress in my life over the weekend, so I've been happier. :P <-(that was a goofy smile, so imagine it)

Some new happenings on my chest/abdomen pains too.

Also, we got a new teacher in maths because our old teachers husband got lung cancer--non smoker type. I fasted for him on Sunday. Even though she'll never know. I don't like to see people cry. She cried in front of us a few times... :( I kept wanting to give her cookies or a casserole (I feel super Molly Mormon saying the casserole bit) but I didn't think it would be appropriate with her being my teacher. So I'll just satisfy my desire to help with fasting and prayer.


Friday, February 29, 2008

Ozon oz spozeozak

Ozoh ozi ozam sozo hozappozy thozat ozit ozis thoze wozeozekozend. Ozi hozavoze bozeozen ozon thoze vozergoze ozof tozeozars ozall wozeozek. Ozi wozent tozo sozomoze bozoozok stozorozes ozand gozot oza bozunch ozof mozangoza.

Ozi lozovoze thoze wozeozekozend. Nozo rozespozonsozibozilozitozy.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Epic win!

That's right, I win! EPICALLY! Bask in my epic glory. But I can hear you asking me, in muted tones, "But why do you win so epically Allison?" Well, my friends, I shall tell you.

Because I finished my paper. And the surf board. AND got sleep. That's right. I finished painting the surfboard and it looks great. There was so lacquer complications--mainly, the lacquer would not come out and I had to be rather forceful with it... heh--but they cleared up and I got a good solid layer or two on. It's currently drying in the garage.

Wings: A Surfboard by ~abthomas on deviantART

The paper was a little awkward at first. I was very tired and really did not want to write it. Not at all. I put it off far too late and started it completely wrong. I got very tired and decided to sleep for an hour, or two. Woke up came downstairs, reread the assignment and fixed all the problems. Wrote it in an hour, because it was a fairly easy paper. Go team.

And now, since it is still pitch black outside and I can only see the dimmest shades of the sky through the trees. I can see the fern outside the window clearly, but it obscures what would be visible of the fence. So I will leave you with this:

Humorous Pictures
Enter the ICHC online Poker Cats Contest!

Hey wait

What... what day is it? I'm completely confused. I keep thinking it's Wednesday, but everything is acting like Thursday.

I must have been spraying lacquer for too long... it seems to have become a permanent scent I smell. Scentifully. New word there. Use it.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Say it ain't so

Doctor yesterday did not go as planned. Plan-ned. Not at all. We still don't know what's wrong, and now we don't think it's an ovarian cyst at all. As the doctor agreed, my body is a medical wonder. Alas.

It would appear I missed the sunrise today. The sky is just a creamy blue. No solidly formed clouds. A frappé of cloud and blue. I can actually see the nest in that tree clearly and all the leaves stuck in it. I can see the bark on the tree too, and how it's lighter on top with little veins of dark running around like fingering streams. This is a very pretty tree.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Looked out the window, what did I see?

Going to the doctor today. Hurray. I can only hope it will get resolved, but knowing my luck, I'll just need more tests. Or they'll say it's nothing to worry about and it'll go away just take these medicines. And then I'll be sad inside for another week. Perhaps it will go away--but probably not. Whatever. Such is mango. I mean, life.

The sun is rising very prettily outside this window here. There's a leafy tree just past the short fence, and the clouds behind this tree are pink and purple. There's a nest in the tree, standing out quite starkly against the pink fluffs. And there's just enough light to see that the leaves are all green and the blossoms have bloomed into tiny, soft, white bouquets.

Good morning.

Sunday, February 24, 2008


I love my dreams. I always have awesome ones. I've had entire stories spanning over two or three nights of sleep. They've been horror to romance to mysteries. I've had dreams in animation. Sometimes they're bizarre and make no sense.

I've written stories based off of dreams. And by based, I mean, copied word for word. At least three stories. Big long stories. I've drawn pictures I saw in my dreams. Paintings. Characters. I've dreamed about people I know, people I wish I knew, and people I can't remember once I've woken up.

I've never had a falling dream.

I've never had a naked dream.

I've never been a guy in a dream.

I've been other girls, myself, and even animals.

I've had dreams where I was someone in the dream. Also where I was watching like a movie. Dreams where I knew what every character was thinking. Where only what the main character was thinking. Where no one was thinking.

I LOVE dreaming.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

I know my number, my telephone number

Rawk! Let the weekend begin!

Already I have slept until 2, had chinese food (EXCITING!!), and purchased two books. Would have bought more, except I refuse to buy books from a series that is incomplete... which is hard for those series which go on well past 20 books and I just want them... By now you may have guessed I am talking about comic books. Yes. I want to buy some. I have the money to... invest. :3 Bwaha. Monday.

Also. I like a good mystery. I do. One of my favorite types of mysteries are the kinds that occur around me! Wooo! Like... when I find I have missed a call and my thought process goes something like this.

Me: This is terribly exciting. I cannot wait to call back this person. Oh noes! I do not have this number in my phone, and therefore it could be a stranger or a person I dislike! I cannot call them now. But I want to know who they are! How can I discover this without being creepy?

I then proceed to the nearest internet and google said phone number (apparently belonging to someone I do not know anything of. Who are you and how did you get my number?).

I kind of hope they will call back so I can be mystified a little less.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

More gum

Happy news! I'm painting another surf board. How awesome, yeah? I enjoyed the first one a lot, and this one will be cool too.

This is a star for the next week (give or take a day or two). A star. Starry star. *gleam*


I like my bed. A lot. I might love it. Hearts all around.

Reading is good too.

And music.

This music!
Anything by Shiny Toy Guns
"Ordinary" - Train
"Everybody's Fool" - Evanescence
"So Stop" - The Helio Sequence
"Under Pressure" - Queen
"Can't Wait to Get Home" - Golden Age
"Line of Best Fit" - Death Cab for Cutie
"Mercy Me" - Alkaline Trio
"Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls
"Must Get Out" - Maroon 5
"Hear You Me" - Jimmy Eat World

Other than that? Same old. Same old.

Per Dad's Request

A positive post. Because I'm not positive enough.

Today, I woke up with enough time to get ready to go to school! I wasn't rushed or anything! :3 But somehow, due to circumstances, I stayed home. And in bed. I love my bed. Bed is awesome! But I will be going to my history class because I really have to take those notes and see that video and get back my test. I just have to!

I'll probably watch some TV. I have a whole bunch of awesome shows recorded and ready for me to see. How sweet is that! Maybe I'll make a phone call or two, for fun. Or lay down some more. :D

The end.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008


Yesterday was rough. Really rough. Jennifer's funeral was in the morning, I cried a lot. I have a permanent "crying headache" which is the pits. Didn't want to stay at home, so I found excuses to go out. Bought clothes, went to my sisters, went to FHE. If I was home, I was in bed.

But I got to vent and have a pleasant conversation just before bed, so that really cheered me up.

Never get enough sleep. But at least I can sleep, yeah? :) Sleep anytime.

Math class is canceled for today. Not for a good thing--my teacher's husband is sick. That is very sad. I feel badly for her. I hope he gets better.

Speaking of sick. I went to the ER on Sunday morning (early) because of sharp pain, which turned out to be an ovarian cist. How lovely for me. All in Tahoe, too. So no parents to be near me. But I had some friends who went with me and waited the entire time. 5 hours. How awesome of them.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Not enough

I want to be negative right now. So go away if you hate negativity.

I feel... not so hot. I wish I could sleep for a few days. Unhindered... no stress. I'm so severely stressed, it's kind of a bad thing.

My eyes are burning.

I've been up for 3 and a half hours.

I have class now.

I am full of unhappiness and the desire to do nothing.

So not hungry.

I still enjoy playing Zelda. :3

Wednesday, February 13, 2008


I have stress. And a brand new headache.


I missed my first class, decided I could miss my second one, and actively went to the third class. Any time I wasn't in class, I was in bed asleep. Not kidding. So I feel rested!

But still stressed from school. So much stress, it's kind of insane. D:

Sad thing. My friend committed suicide. Don't know how else to say that. She did and it's very sad.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

A conundrum

A legitimate question, Jonas.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

All I need is a hundred reasons

Updates in Alli's life:
-Going to the Doctor on the 11th for my wrist (sad)
-Had a headache all day
-Giants won in an amazing 4th quarter!!
-Sonicflyer is the B-E-S-T

I really enjoyed watching the SuperBowl. Especially the last two quarters. For my own reasons. The game was interesting, though. Really! I got so into it! But there were other things on my mind as well.


Sue still hasn't emailed me back. I'll give her until tomorrow afternoon, then give her a call.

Started having a migraine during the early afternoon. It's pretty bad now. I'll take my green pill with some juice and some other snackery.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

We believe

If there is anything good out there,
We believe.
If there is hope in the heat of despair,
We believe.

If honesty opens a eye to truth,
Wake up the world,
And welcome the proof.

We believe...

We believe in one name under heaven
Where all things are given by faith, love and hope.

We believe...

We believe in obedience ringing the bell of the free
We believe and we'll live what we know.

If there is innocence undefiled,
We believe.
Is there to retreat from the wild?
We believe.

If virtue is one thing you won't be without,
We'll fight with the faithful
We'll sing and we'll shout.

We believe...

We believe in one name under heaven
Where all things are given by faith, love and hope.

We believe...

We believe in obedience ringing the bell of the free
We believe and we'll live what we know.

We believe...

We believe in one name under heaven
Where all things are given by faith, love and hope

We believe...

We believe in obedience ringing the bell of the free
We believe and we'll live what we know.

We believe...

And we'll live what we know!

We believe.

It burns

President Hinckley died today... It hasn't quite hit me yet. It'll probably hit me as I'm falling asleep tonight, or tomorrow night. Sometime. It will. And I'll cry and cry. I'll miss his words and guidance.

In other news... There isn't much. Reading books. Drawing a lot. See?

Team artist for the win!

Saturday, January 26, 2008

I don't care

It's 12:30 and I was struck with the idea of a drawing... a fabulous, creepy drawing. One you just want to stare at... Detailed. Unique. Just... I want to create it.

Been sketching out final details, perfecting certain things. Soon comes the actual piece. I need bigger paper, I think. Or do I want to scan it when I'm done?! I have no idea.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Rain Snob

What a lovely day, eh? Rain rain and more rain. Yuck. I prefer Arizona rain. Warmer and has a better sky.

On the other hand, I took a picture of a rainbow. And some clouds.

A rainbow. I promise!!
Pretty clouds.
I looked down at my feet and saw they were standing funny.
I really liked it... <3

Hm. I had a history exam, that I studied for extra hard. I think I may have aced it *prays she didn't jinx it*

And... yes. Math homework due tomorrow, so I should get it done. Between CD burns. I have, here beside me, a very tall stack of blank CD's just waiting to be burned... how lovely. :3

SO excuse me.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Ship shape

Rawr! *swipes curled fingers*

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Catch up? Ketchup

Today was crazy!


I got up at 5 to shower to take my mom to the airport to not be late for math. And I did all of those! I'm very proud.

After school, I went to my sister's baby sit the baby so she could get a bit of paperwork done. He was perfect, though tired, and very cheerful. Playing and giggling. Absolutely charming baby. <3

Once I left there, I popped by my old high school to say hi to people and to find out what my GPA had been. Then it was off to SJSU to meet with a pre-admissions counselor. She was VERY helpful. I found I'll have 96 transferable credits or more when I transfer. How exciting! I also learned I don't need to take the other pre-calculus course De Anza offers because this one and my trig course fulfill the requirement and I can go right into Calculus at SJSU. I can't even express my pleasure at this!! *bursts* So I got home and worked on my application some more.

But I have another cold, so I got a little light headed and decided to have a nap. It was a good nap and I woke up just in time for Institute. Which was excellent as usual.

Tomorrow I'm going to meet with a De Anza counselor to make sure they pass me off on my GE and to get some questions answered. Maybe I'll call some people for their opinions on what courses I should take for my last quarter. I'm thinking Biology 10, and life drawing. But I need 4 more units to be a full time student. So, I'm kind of at a loss. Blah.

Now I'm home and absolutely reeling from icky sickiness. I took out the trash and haven't got anything due tomorrow, so I'm off to bed.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

On famous guys

Sure am glad I took anthropology last quarter.


Saturday, January 05, 2008

On New Yearsing

My New Year's was good! Yes yes, good.

I went to a huge party in Palo Alto with Haley. The party was a bit too big, I think. Well, no, I know it was too big. At least for me. I love parties, but not so huge like that. I had the most fun sitting upstairs in the quiet, cooler, brighter room with quieter people. Haley and Mark and I all chattered away and made a plan that after the ball dropped we congregate at Mark's house. We being a very small group (six??).

On the way down, Haley and I stopped at In-n-out for eats because I was starving. There was a bit of drama on whether or not we should actually go because it was already 1 am and all did live with our parents who have curfews. But we went anyway. I'm glad we did, too. :3

It was very low key and we played apples to apples while some music played. It was so chill, I loved it.

And last night, it was basically the same thing. A slightly larger group met up at Mark's and we played more games and it was super fun! I stayed far too late chatting with Mark, his roommate (steve? I'm terrible with names) and Megan. It was insanely late when we left, and I feel guilty. Won't stay that late again. But we helped clean up a bit so they wouldn't have to.

Good night!