Rilo Kiley is the awesome

Tonight was my birthday surprise with Karren. Every year, she takes me somewhere and it's always a blast. The last 3 years we've done amazing musicals. This year? A Rilo Kiley concert. I am so happy, I can hardly breathe. She handed me the tickets and I screamed and jumped up and down! OH! So awesome! And we had a super yummy dinner and desserts!

And we got the best parking because of my handicap placard! A block away! And the only stood in line for 10 minutes or so, and then got killer KILLER seats! We were on the ground level, in the front section. But on the second tier, in the front, so we got to lean on the rails and had no one blocking our view!!! And the opening band was awesome (Grand Ol Party) and then Rilo Kiley came out!

Jenny wore this awesome gold mini dress, and gold shoes! And Blake wore some awesome shirt and slacks and a vest--looked slick! And they were SO good! Playing old classic songs (Arms Outstretched, Spectacular View) and new ones (Portions for Foxes, Silver Lining). OH, when Silver Lining came on, they threw these GIANT silver balls out into the crowd and we smacked them around! And at the climax of the song, one of them popped and gold confetti flew EVERYWHERE! And the rest popped! Later, Jenny pulled two fans onto the stage to dance!

I'm so tired!

My voice is shot, and my ears a bit ringy.

I'm so happy!

Angry babies

It's like... awesome.

Growth

Today I finally realized I'm not mature enough for many things. I mean, honestly. I often feel like I'm very mature because I get to do things which, to me, have always seemed so very "grown up." Like driving. I drive. Hurray. But I also like video games and comics. Which isn't bad, per say, merely... childish. Repeat, it isn't bad and doesn't make me any less of anything. It's just not something I can utilize in my social interactions with my adult friends.

I have a lot of growing up to do. Someday, I'm sure, I'll move past many things that I enjoy now. Onto other things, which I will enjoy as well. I can't pin point a time in which I will, but I will all the same. I moved on from carebears, and the like. Now those are memories. Fond ones. And someday, this will be too. I have no problem with that. I will enjoy them while I do.

I will also, though, build up the more mature aspects of my life. Reading, thinking, et cetera. I will develop more self-discipline and an even stronger desire to serve. I know I am mature in some ways. When I don't feel like I have my mom taking care of me, I take care of things myself. I don't mind, either. I clean up messes, do the dishes, and even go to bed at a decent hour. It's just that I know it won't get done unless I do it. And I want things done.

Someday, I will mature more fully. And I will aim towards it. But if I force myself to get rid of things I enjoy for the sake of maturity, I will regret it and be a little bitter towards myself. I will also have a lingering sentiment towards those things, which will never quite vanish. And then, I'll always be a little immature.

I'm colllllld

Really really cold. Brr!

So, I was feeling headachey all day. It was the uncool. I lay down all day, and even took medicines. Still headachey. Blah. So I took a hot bath, which was really nice. :) I felt a lot better afterwards. Even more nice!

But I went downstairs and hopped on my puter. I read some stuff, and looked some stuff up, and then promptly felt angry at what I found. Non-specifics, but I was infuriated. It was a bad time. A dark time. Gr.

I wanted to cheer up, so I opened up word and began writing the script for my big project. I wrote, and wrote, and I have 13 pages of script! Which equals out to being 67 pages of actual product. X) I feel great! That's the first chapter!!

So, now I'm tired, and infinitely more cheerful. So I shall sleep.

A futigive in the car?

I feel sluggish this morning. I fell asleep around 12:30 or 1, woke up at 3:45 for some reason. Woke up again at 5:30. Then again at 7:45. And again at 9:15. I finally gave up, and got up. But I'm still tired and sluggish. Urg.

I'm going to go take pictures of my rocks some more. I took some last night. Should be able to finish up today. :D

I also want to paint my nails! I should do that really soon, though, since I'm picking up James from the airport at 12.

The swiss SHOULD make tanks like that

Threadless is the awesome! Because today was sale day, I got some shirts! $10 a tee! So worth it. I got 3 new shirts. I am very, very happy. :)

I got one with stars on, one with a sandcastle, and another with a tank.

Yeah. Life is good when you have cool shirts.

I salute you, sir

Tomorrow I'm picking up my friend from the airport. Sometime around noon. He'll call when he lands.

I took some naps. They were nice and relaxing. I feel less headachey. Although... I did take two excedrin and a flexirol when I woke up. Nice a relaxing. I ended up laying on my bed, playing video games. Though, now the meds have worn off. So I'm in some pain, but I can't take the excedrin or it'll keep me awake all night. So I might just go to bed, while I still can.

I debate whether I shower tonight, or tomorrow. Hm.

Headaches cause explosions

I'm about to faint. I wish I were kidding. I don't really know why I'm writing this. I can hardly think straight. That may be the reason, actually.

My headache is back, with a fury. A blinding, excruciating fury. It's like my head is on fire, under pressure, and being hammered on by a miner. When I move my head and neck, it hurts. I am not happy, to say the least..

Dad and I went to Gilroy this morning. I got two new skirts. :) Yay.

He's going to be tired and not feeling well when he gets back from the picnic. I left the picnic early, but he's still there. Poor Dad..

Pillows

Ugh. I think there's something wrong with my pillow (pilluh!) because for the past two mornings I've woken up sore, and with a kink in my neck. On the right side. I think I've been sleeping on my right shoulder again. I usually can't, but when I slept on the couch, I could! Super! But once I moved back to a bed, I think that ability stopped. Now I'm suffering for it. Blah...

Dad and I are going to Gilroy, for shopping. It's a sale day, after all, and I have gift certificates!! :D I hope I find a skirt!

I'm still a little sleepy. But, when we get home, I might go visit the labor day picnic.. Maybe.

A severe lack of energy

Hungry... hng...

I'm a bit sad. My bishop told me he's transferring my records out of the ward and to another one. All because I don't live in the ward boundaries anymore. 9.9 Sheesh. So this is my last month in the ward.

My friend, Sam, agrees that I need to celebrate my birthday before I leave the ward. I want a pie party. Pie and Amelie. Amelie makes a pie in the movie, so that works. Plus, it's my birthday party-- if I say something has pie related to it in some form I should be agreed with. Thoroughly and without fail. So I think this Saturday afternoon it shall come to be. Pie, Amelie, and my birthday. Huzzah! Pie!

Also. My mom is out of town, leaving me and my dad to fend for ourselves. So far, we have not eaten or slept, and I suspect a bear may be trying to get into the house.

The remainder of my Sunday shall be spent as thus: lying in my bed. Possibly reading, possibly playing video games, possibly taking pictures of rocks. I shall also, more than likely, eat. Sleep seems to drift in and out of my radar, so I may come to a head with that. All in all, I think I shall be useless.

Buckle it all down

Last night, I was so completely awake. I fully intended to go to bed, but couldn't sleep. So I unpacked some of my things. My room is now fully equipped with a large rock collection, books, artbooks, sketchbooks, blankets, and other decorative things. Feels nice and roomy.

I need more cases for my rocks, though. Hm. I have a little bit of money... something like, 20 dollars. Give or take a few. I could buy the remainder of the boxes I need. It's just so scary to have them sitting out, unprotected. O_O What if they fall? This is very stressful.

And in the course of unpacking my rocks, I thought I had lost some! Which made me realize I need to catalog my rocks. I can take pictures and upload them to my computer. I will do that.

But first, the downstairs needs so crazy cleaning action!

Headaches

I've been suffering from some pretty severe migraines for the past, oh... week. It's been something akin to purgatory. But I didn't know they were migraines! I thought they were just some inexplicable headaches. That taking pain meds would cure me of it. That eating meals with lots of protein and vitamins would help too!

Lies.

My Dad was swift to identify them. And quick to inform me of what measures to take. I am to not eat:
Caffeine (not hard)
Cheese (Not too bad, either)
Chocolate (Um...)
Sugar (?!?!?)
This all makes me very sad! But I must bear it... I have sworn off milk until the headaches cease, because I feel it too closely related to cheese. And experience has shown that after I drink milk, my headache lasts and lasts-- depite taking the headache medicine.

I am suspicious of the headache medicine! It's excedrine. Does that not have caffeine? I thought it did... seems rather silly.

Pie

I want to make a pie. I don't make pie, though. I never have, actually. I don't know how. I want to learn. I want to find a recipe, and buy some fruit things (blackberries?) and make a delicious pie. Or maybe a raspberry pie. Or a chocolate pie. Either way, a pie! I want to make one! And then, give it to someone. I should make a tester first, though. Pie can turn out wrong, I hear. -._-.

I want them to have cute little patterny things on top. The weave pattern, or something. That'd be the awesome! :D

Huh what?

I've recently felt old fears creeping back into my mind. Social fears. Fear that springs up when I look into someone's face. I fear they wish I would go away. If I call, I'm afraid they don't want to talk to me. Same with IM. And emailing. And plain old talking. Afraid they wish me away and I can't take a hint. Heh. This is the fear that makes me act confident and loud-- if I act like everyone wants me, everyone will. Right?

I think my pain meds are getting to me. I feel shaky-- been feeling so all night. My chest feels shaky and my limbs feel quivery and heavy (like lead). I often need to rest them limply at my sides. And take deep breaths. Maybe I should eat something; I might be hungry.

More turns

Okay, so things have gotten better on the school front. I reapplied for that math course today and I was allowed to be wait listed, so I feel lucky! I was lucky that I got the classes I wanted at the times I wanted, even.

I've also been working on the year long schedule some more. Need to factor in Pre-calc classes. Some Chemistry or Physics too. Maybe I could retake my Geology course. I would enjoy that. I still have my book and notes. :) I'll definitely reconsider it!

I'll later post up my entire plan. When it's complete.

I'm waiting for a call back from a girl I know who worked as a receptionist for this Dentist I want to work under. She's going to give me advice. I hope this works for me... It would be perfect.

Life turns

Haaa... I'm tired. In a good way. I suppose?

*shrug*

Today I realized that I didn't know when I was supposed to register for my Fall courses. So, an hour and a half before a party, I popped on-line to check. And my heart plummeted. My registration date was July 25th!!!! I am almost a month late! Oh noes!!

So I ran around the house looking for my important papers file box. And then I tore that apart looking for the list of courses I still need for my GE. Found them, but I had to redo it. I only need 4 more! :D Whoa! I could, technically, get them all in this quarter. You know... if I wanted to die...

I quickly sorted through the courses online. Found the best teachers, the best days, the best times, organized for this quarter, signed up, and hurried to dinner.

Dinner was great. Cheesecake Factory is so very good. :) It was nice to be with my friends, to feel so wanted and pleasant. It was so nice. <3 I love my friends.

Got home around 10:15 and relaxed. I'm in the process of mapping out the remainder of my De Anza career. I can't finish tonight because the student login is down for the evening. I have to wait until tomorrow. I did my best for the evening. Fall is, obviously, mapped. I believe I know two courses which I will take in Winter, and know one for Spring. I need to figure out how to get my science classes in, too.

This quarter I'm taking Philosophy, Speech, and Astronomy. I was going to re-take that last math class (Trig) due to the horrendous grade I got, but for some reason the system would not allow me to take it again. I am going to assume it's because I'm trying to take it right away-- it just occurred to me that I might have signed up for it during Summer term. But I dropped all my Summer courses before it even started because I needed a break! So, I may have used up my chances to retake it! NO! I can't have screwed myself over already?!

I need to talk to a school counselor to figure out how to get around that. Maybe they'll allow me to take it again once they understand I needed Summer off.

=_= I feel stupid, oh so stupid. It's insipid how stupid I FEEL! I'm so stupid, I can hardly believe I'm real.

I'm going to map out my life some more...

In which I learn to longboard

Yes, I have learned the ways of a skater. I can longboard now. I can pump, get on, steer, and even wipe out. I have wiped out. I did a big one and got a fat bruise on my thigh. James had to carry me to the elevator. But I'm okay now, just a bruise-- it felt like it would have hurt more to walk on than it did. But I am ADDICTED to the longboard. I want one now.

Apologies

It's not that I don't write in my journal. Or blog. I do. Just, I do it at MySpace. I'll try to be better here. It's a little different though. I mean, MySpace is not only my blog place but also... hm. Something else, I'm sure. I keep going back. Probably for the bulletins.

But I'll be better!

See what I made today?


Pretty sweet.

Huh, all that stuff helped.

Scary stuff.

While out in Stevens Creek Canyon yesterday, helping my friend with a movie she had to film, one of the other actors started complaining about his arm feeling numb. And then he started shaking. No one else knew what to do, but I remembered some stuff out of my first-aid training in Young Women's. So we got him onto the trail and had him lay down and propped his legs up. He started to get really out of it, so I asked him questions for about 15 minutes. I made him drink water and splashed some on his arms and face. I'd sent a girl to run down the trail until she had a signal on her phone and then to call 9-1-1, and I guess she found a hiker on the way too because he came running up and helped me. The paramedics came, at last, and they helped him. By the time they arrived, he was pretty awake. But he couldn't really talk much.

But, he's okay now. It's all good. It was just really stressfull.

I'm an auntie...

I'm officially an Auntie. The baby has been born. He is flesh blood and air now. No more inside my sister. Entirely his own self. I have never felt so much love for one being before. Especially considering I haven't even seen him yet. Heh.

Bradley David Lyle.

I love him so much. I can hardly wait to be with him as he grows up.

Laura says he has her hair. Lots and lots of it. Heh. Cute. She also says he has Brock's mouth and chin. Heh heh. Good. Brock has a good chin and an EXCELLENT smile. Laura has gorgeous hair too. He has his grandpa's names, too. Bradley Lyle and David Thomas. What a lucky kid.

What a lucky woman I am.