Chocolate

I got to sleep in today. :3 I slept in really late. It was lovely. But, also a mistake, because I should have gone to the store. Alas...

My room mates and I are throwing a house warming party this weekend. It'll be very chill and laid back, but we need food. I am not excited to buy that food--it will be a lot of food. T_T

But I went to my neighbors house this evening for Jaren's surprise party! I went early to help Tim set up, and no one else showed up to help. I was shocked. So we made cake, and cleaned the house, and put food out. He watered some trees outside while I watered the plants inside. I later decorated the cakes as people came. The party was fun and there was dancing by the end of it, lots of fun music. I got to see Hannah and had SO much fun chattering with her about whatever and ever. Secret stuff. Y'know. Like. Whatever.

Afterwards, I helped clean up. I washed the dishes while Tim put food away and such. He got some of the chocolate cake on his shirt and was silly and refused to go change out of it into something else, so I had to clean it on him.

Anyway. I baby sit the bebe tomorrow, as usual. I am determined to get there on time. Goodness.

Did laundry today too.

To do:
Study for history final
Clean my room
Clean the house
Buy food, and party food
Weed the backyard
Buy a tree (?)

THIS is why I laughed like crazy--I finished!!

That's all I have to say about that.

HA HA HA HA!!!

Why am I laughing like a crazy head? I will tell you later. Seriously, I will.

I made some Mushroom Leek soup this evening, and it turned out well. A teensy bit thin, but no one need know but the people in the family who know better. And the taste is still right and good, so the ward will be happy at the Linger Longer. Happiness prevails.

I wrote a song on Garage Band the other day, and I'm highly pleased because I can't read music to save my life. But I can hear the note that I need and the program has a nifty little sound to note thing. Kind of thing. Like... I put a note on the scale and it sounds it so I can adjust until it's right, and then I put another one beside it. And adjust the length of each note. :3 I am very happy.

Mmm... Mmmm! I took a final today! My first final! My arts of asia class. I studied like a madwoman for it and I think I did really well!!! I felt so confident in my answers. ^_^ YEE!! And the teacher took me aside and said I was looking at a B average, which is WAY more than I thought I had. So, whoa and yay! I'm so pleased. SO pleased.

And I've been feeling so inspired to write and things are coming nicely out.

All in all, good mood all around.

Mah Ha!

I feel like I should write something here.

O hai?

I've been very busy with work and school. Trying to get sleep in wherever possible, too. Yesterday I was really sick though, and called work to see how heavy it was and told them I was willing to come in. But they said it was fine, I should rest. I was grateful, but now it's Friday, almost friday noon, and the pain remains. This all sucks something fierce.

Anyway, I have to go buy food today. Also, deposit money. And clean my room. All before 2. Then Jacqueline comes over for some creativity time, and then I go to Gwen's for dinner. :3

Moving, settling, and relaxing

Today was complicated. Very complicated. I'm extremely tired.

First off, I got 1 hour of sleep last night. My mind was racing, for some bizarre reason. *shrug* Then I got up at 7am to get ready for school. I did my homework, turned it in, and then went back home.

I then proceeded to get some rest.

Then I packed my remaining things--things I use regularly. Ooh. That was tiring. Then it was off to the shorebreeze to fetch my moving buddies. It took over an hour to round them all up. But we needed every one of them: James, Meredith, and Jaren. My brother-in-law came a short while later and he helped us.

We moved everything into a U-Haul van and drove it to my house. Then we emptied it all into the garage. Most people left, so I trickled some of the stuff out. But I left around 6:15 to go to a talent/variety show to see all my friends perform. It was awesome.

Then James and I drove back to my parents to get the desk we forgot and some more food and bedding. Then back to my house, where James put my desk in my room, and then constructed my drafting table and my bed. Then we went to his apartment and watched Moulin Rouge because I hadn't seen it. I liked it. It made me cry.

After that, I was a zombie walking, but by the time I got home I was more awake, so I unpacked some more. Mostly, the things I needed. Computer stuff, my bedding, clothes, pajamas, scriptures. But I haven't found all my shoes, so I'll have to dig those up before church or else go in converses. Hrm.

A thousand ways

I worked. All. Day. Oh. Man. I'm so tired. Dead.

I got there an hour early due to miscalculations on my part of travel time. Ah well. And then I read the handbook for an hour, signed stuff for a half hour, and then tore the covers of magazines for an hour. I shelved books the rest of the day (5 hours of shelving). I got a ticket for parking in one place too long, but it was implied they would cover it because someone told me I could park there. I hope it is. I kind of need all the money I can get. Shelving... shelving. SHELVING. *twitch* I didn't finish shelving the fiction cart I loaded out.

I move in a week. Woo!

Feeling a little overwhelmed right now, though. Yeah... It's staggering me. I need to take tomorrow after school off. I work on Monday, so Saturday is my day. Yo.

Sometimes, music makes my heart hurt.

On the progress of Al kind

Al being me. Allison. Alli. Al. Grasp it?

I signed my lease. I move on the last weekend of May! Eek! X) I'm so excited!!! ^_^ A house and a room and roommates again! YAY!

Also. I got my job. Officially, I start tomorrow morning. Man! I'm excited. :3 That mans money. I have be extra thrifty and frugal. I will manage. I can't afford to spend money willy nilly because I will have barely enough to eat and buy gas with. And pay my rent.

I also have to make sure I finish getting into SJSU. So much to do... still. >_< Gwar!

I want to attend a comic/cartoon costume party in June, and I need to prepare my costume. Rogue. I shall be her. I'll be awesome!! :D

I have to write a paper due Saturday. I'll work on it a lot tonight, and finish tomorrow night. Yes.

Life unfolds

My life is on the verge of drastic, permanent change. In so many ways. It's a bit intimidating.

Moving out again, hopefully in a more permanent manner, within the next month.

Going to a university in the Fall.

Getting a job.

Getting a car.

I mean, wow. So much change. And I keep changing internally as well. Making decisions and coming to conclusions. Some of them are very hard for me to make, and I will try to fight myself on them someday, if not immediately. But I'll rely on others to help me when I need it. And I do need it.

I hope I can see clearly and not be blinded by silly oddities.

Twitter

I have a Twitter. Who knew? Not me. Didn't think I'd ever go there. I have. I'm there. I might possibly be the Mayor of Twitterville.




Ha ha, Twitter.

Have I no evil?

I am feeling energetic and productive!

I ran outside for about 30 minutes and took pictures of our pretty garden. I can see it outside my window everyday and today I noticed the rose bush was pretty in the sunlight, so off I went. And there I saw all these other flowers I had never seen through my window. Photos were taken. Love was shared. Tears were shed.

Anyway. I'm completely ready to be productive and happy. So I'm going to do my homework and maybe even do all the homework for the rest of the quarter (as far as I can do them, as some may involve a movie or discussion) for my History class. I will then, perhaps between some homework, go finish my bathroom and bedroom cleaning process.

Woo! I feel really upbeat!

Future Foe Scenarios

I love this song so very much, I just have to put the lyrics here. Now. And insist you find it and listen.

"The things we laid do not amount to much
Made of abandoned wood, loose stones and such.
This revolution, baby,
Proves who you work for lately

Release the castaways who run amok
From self appointed winds which blow and such.
When present tense get strangled in the mire
Made of our cozy decomposing wires.

Who do you work baby?
Does it work for you lately?

But when the night is over and the walls start burning,
When fire starts to matter and the clock's still churning.
Clichés and other chatter keep our minds from learning
Our minds keep learning
It's alright
It's alright.

The things we laid do not amount to much
Made up of thought balloons and cotton swabs
When present tense get strangled in the woes
Made up our future foe scenarios

This revolution, baby,
Proves who you work for lately.
Who do you work for, baby,
Does it work for you lately?

But when the night is over and the walls start linking
When fire starts to matter and the clock's still sinking
Clichés and all the chatter keep our minds from thinking
I must keep thinking
It's alright!
It's alright.
It's alright...

It's alright.
That's when it turned on me
A motorcade of 'meant to be's
Parade of beauty queens
Where soft entwines make kindling.
These many detailed things
Like broken nails and plastic rings
Will win by keeping me
From speaking to my new darling!
And there's no way to know
Our future foe scenarios
That's when it turned on me
Where bobby pins held angel wings."

A motorcade of meant-to-be's

When I was following the path along Geology, I knew certain things would not happen and certain things would happen later. I didn't know specifics, but a lot of things were going to happen later in my life.

When I changed to become an art teacher, it dawned on me (only days ago) that things were different this way. Things that weren't possible before, are very possible now. And things that were for later, can now be sooner. It's daunting, but not really... I'm just getting ready.

Like towers

My first week of the new quarter is almost over. One more class tomorrow morning. I know. Saturday class. Lame, yeah? But it could be worse. X)

I'm trying to take the initiative in my life. Things I've been wanting to do, I just have to do. I can't argue that I want it if I won't work for it. I have to keep trying. It's rough. -_-

Need to find an apartment. And get a job of some kind. I'm tired of no job. I want to learn a language I actually like (spanish=no likey) and keep up my schoolwork.

Like retake that math class this summer. I am. Or will. Yes.

Which reminds me. One of my classes was canceled for the whole quarter, so I had to find a new class to take. I wanted one that transfers to SJSU in my major but everything was full. I finally found the advanced ceramics class had some open spots and emailed the teacher and got in. I took the intro class a few quarters ago, so if I take this, it'll fulfill the requirement for taking a ceramics course at SJSU. Did that make sense? Somehow I think it didn't.

Patchwork farms

I feel brand new. Or rather, back to normal. Like I once did but haven't felt in a long while. It's extremely comforting and pleasant.

I even have a cold, and don't care. *snuggle*

I have decided to switch my major back to art. I realized, after much deliberation, I was unhappy. And I tried a lot of things to get back to my happy place, but to no avail. And when someone mentioned to me, I might be happy doing art again. I felt they were right, but still fought it. But then it occurred to me... I would actually enjoy being an art teacher. For high schoolers, yeah? I loved my high school art classes. They were like a second home. Wonderful.

So, here I am, altering my schedule for next quarter so I'm taking two art classes instead of two science classes. And I feel really good about it! :D YAY!

My spoon is too big

So, the past week, I have been on lent. Or rather, something that is very like, but not the exact same as lent. Basically, lent with a different name.

What have I lented? (new word, use it) Internet. Most internet. Specifically!

Facebook
MySpace
Instant Messaging (except in emergencies)
And I have tried to keep from blogging.

I have created a rewards system for myself. Every week I go without, I get to buy myself a book. :3 Yee!

I suspect I must add YouTube to that list because it is VERY distracting. Goodness.

Anyway. Why I have lented these things away!

I spend far too much time on the computer being lazy youtubing, facebooking, myspacing, and whatever else. And I need to spend more time being real and doing real things. Like spending time with the family. Reading books. Drawing. Walking. Singing. Writing.

I've been writing! I wrote a short story, six pages long, that no one will ever read. Ever. I'm shy. But I enjoyed it.

Right. Well. Yes.

Don't Expect much from me on this front. Or any other front. I'm off being whatever I want to be.

In the wars

Sometimes I wonder if the pains will just taper off, yeah? Maybe after a few more months, they'll be gone. I mean, sometimes I don't feel them! That's a good sign. But then again, sometimes I do feel them. Quite sharply. And though the magnitude of whatever it is has decreased over the weeks, the fact remains: I'm still in pain. After a month. That is a bad bad thing.

So let's get an ultrasound!

Oh! So... 32 ounces of water sounds like a lot. But it's actually only 4 cups of water. Yeah. That's it. Right? Well... 4 cups of water? IS A LOT!

Water is NOT a tasty tasty treat...

Tuh-marruh

I finally get some ultrasounds tomorrow for my stomach pains. After over a month. How annoying.

As a result of the coming photos, I can't be eating or drinking after midnight. BUT tomorrow at 9 am, I have to start chugging 32 ounces of water. Ugh. And I have to drink it all by 9:30. I'm going to die.

Reading is lovely. I decided to read Emma first and Jane Eyer after that.

All bones, no lies

Song of choice: "Skinny Boy" by Amy Millan

Le sigh.

I have a lot to think about. It's hard being a girl sometimes, because my mind explores every option that could ever be available to me. And it taints a great many opportunities. Or imagines opportunities up where only walls will stand.

Happy Easter.

Finished Enchantment. I love that book. Jane Eyer is next, I believe. That excites me. :) I hope I can walk tomorrow. I miss the walking. I didn't walk today. It didn't occur to me. I walk on odd days.

Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays have always felt like "even days" while Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays feel like "odd days" and Sunday is the equals sign. Huh.. My life is a math equation. But either way, Sunday remains neither odd nor even, so I may choose to walk it. I should walk Saturdays, though. Definitely.

I catch myself staring off into space. Thinking of nothingness. What distracts me so.. I wish I could express it without confusing myself.

Writing has helped me keep my mind clear. As has reading. I have been finding marvelous ways to distract myself, no?

Song of choice: "Come Clean" by Eisley
(Can't wait to see them in May!!)

Huh... that's different

My stomach is flip-flopping. I don't know what to make of that. I feel like maybe I should eat something. No, wait, that makes it flip more (or rather, the idea does). I'm not sure what's the cause is.

Meanwhile, I feel for assured in some once conceived notions of mine. Yeah.

Brings us back to the impossible truth

This kind of thing, should not BE normal. That's all I have to say on that.

I have rediscovered my love of a certain band. Golden Age, I believe it's called. And learned. It is gone. Forever. The band is just gone. Which makes me sad because I like their music. I only have four songs, which may be all they ever made. But I love them.

Want school to be done. Tired of it. Want to go to the beach.